Say Yes When You Want To Say No is a series of paintings that are a result of the interaction between my strive for perfection and finding ways to oppose it by bending the rules that I had set in advance. As I’m an obsessive perfectionist who wants to keep things under control, I use experiments while painting to free myself from that obsessiveness. Each painting is build onto moments of these definitive decisions and doubts. The complete series can be seen as one large artwork, in which every painting has a different kind of research and story.
Normally I would abstract the everyday life and use existing patterns and colours from my surroundings, but this time I wanted to work from my own archive. The colour combination evolved out of several tests for previous paintings and the (work) pattern is from ‘If You Can’t Be Good, Be Weird #3’. The concept/pattern is that the first layer is created with tape in a squared four colour combination with one larger square in the middle. I deliberately used tape in the first layer, because of the risk that acrylic paint would slide underneath. So when the first layer was finished, I started rebuilding the grid without tape by adding the same colours and varying it to different locations on the canvas. The result is a differentiated pattern that forced me to continue working on the painting. After the first layers in acrylic paint I continued with the work-pattern in oil paint and moved the initial visual pattern 1.5 cm lower. I used the transparency of the oil paint to keep the layers underneath visible and to force myself again to leave things unchanged.
Say Yes When You Want To Say No #1 is the first painting in which I extremely experimented with colours and with #2 I created a version were the colour combination was fixed and the pattern was changing. With painting #5 and #6 I didn’t finish the pattern at all and with the larger paper paintings I only used two colours and its mixtures. The result of these paintings show a good example of the interaction between my strive for perfection and finding ways to oppose it.